I need to get my hope restored. I need my faith refreshed. I’m feeling a bit in despair. The past couple days have taken a toll on my worldview. Between being home 95% of the time, keeping updated with the virus, trying to follow what science and facts say versus the Buffoonery on both sides of the aisle and the inflated mainstream media stories…its wearing on my a bit. My hope for some kind of normal, hope for getting some truth, hope for finding some relief for the world and myself; I am finding myself losing my compassion and keeping my anger in check difficult.
So today is Saturday and I decided that I’m going to relax, regroup and just shut it off. My plan to watch Four Weddings marathon all day long! I am not a mushy, lovey dovey girl and usually despise these kinds of shows. But my daughter was watching it a few weeks ago and now I’m hooked! Right?! Gotta try new things. Also planned on starting another book. I’ve finished two so far; Daring Greatly by Brene Brown and The Sleep Revolution by Arianna Huffington. These were given to me last fall when I was having sleep issues by friends and finally got around to reading them. I recommend both. So a friend dropped off more books on my front porch Thursday while I was out grocery shopping; shopping now is a dreadful experience having to wear a mask or face covering. That day of errands was the beginning of my fall to negativism.
But back to refreshing myself today. I picked out a couple of books to get started. One is Suze Orman which I figure is a financial one; the other has to do with leadership and poetry. So I grabbed my coffee, turned on the show and starting previewing the books. I was a few pages in when I came across Emily Dickinson. It’s about Hope; short, to the point which is me(see picture). I typically don’t care for poetry; it’s like trying to read Shakespeare. Something made me turn to the Suze Orman book and I flipped to the back cover. There it is again, Hope. (See picture) No coincidence. I firmly believe in God and signs to reaffirm or give you a spark. I did tear up after reading these because I was feeling so aggravated the past couple of days. And when I looked up through my watery eyes to view the TV, my eyes actually fixated on the sign under the TV that I put on my shelf last week when I was rearranging; FAITH, HOPE, LOVE. There it is! I wasn’t looking for a sign but yep, WOW. Ended up being a literal sign! Now it’s finally a 60 degree, sunny day, going out to enjoy the sunshine! 🌞
